Bemused By Beleaguering
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Adult onset rapid cycling Bipolar II, PTSD, Agoraphobic, Social anxiety disorder...triggered by a Trauma in 2010. I am also estranged from my immediate family. Complete Dog-Nerd.- Bemuse: To cause to be bewildered, preoccupied, confused. So lost in thought as to be unaware of one's surroundings.
- Beleaguer: To exhaust with attacks, to overburden with troubles, to mentally beset from all sides persistently
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Tag Archives: Estrangement
I hate Fathers Day
It’s still, even after 6 years, a hard one for me. When you have zero support or contact from your family pretty much all holidays sting. My grandfather and his siblings never spoke for most of their lives. My father … Continue reading
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Tagged Anxiety, Bullshit, Dysfunctional, Estrangement, Family, Life, Meddlers, Narcissist, Trust
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Me angry? HELL YA
I bought this book a while back from a 2nd hand store. “From Anger To Forgiveness” I got to page 12 tonight before I threw it against the wall lol. The book has been sitting on my night-table shelf for … Continue reading
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Tagged Anger, Anxiety, Bipolar II, Estrangement, Family, Meddlers, Mental Abuse
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What happened in 2014? I dunno
In January my JRT foster dog was adopted and I spent 10 days dog sitting for a friend which helped pay my rent since I still had not found a room renter. Jan 30 I was sent a fabulous new … Continue reading
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Tagged Depression, Estrangement, Mental Health, Misophonia, PTSD, Stalking
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Wozers- 3 years later! Here is Dec 2011-Dec 2013
Well shit I wrote a long post and by accident deleted it. Much has happened in the last 3 years. I had a lot of good come into my life. I’m not really sure why I stopped blogging as it … Continue reading
No I’ve not fallen off the face of the earth
I have however had a pretty rough 6 mths or so 😦 After I let my dog pass on I sort of fell into a funk for a bit.  (actually I still have his last blankie in bed with me … Continue reading
Fathers Day minus a Father
This is the 1st Fathers day in my life that I did not contact my Dad and send him a gift. I spent a great deal of time today reflecting on my past relationship with him. We generally got along … Continue reading
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Tagged Dysfunctional, Estrangement, Family, Mental Abuse, Trust
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Possible help is on it’s way
I was in to see my doctor yesterday (after mths of anxiety thinking about it and 2 days of preparing for the appt…sigh) Who again assigned me unable to work for min 18 mths to 2 years based on her assessment. … Continue reading
Passing time
Time passes by for me very quickly. The trauma I experienced still feels like yesterday although Jan 19th marked one full year. I have days where I am fairly productive and others where I feel I have done nothing. Any … Continue reading
More unwanted contact
As suspected I got more mail from my Dad prior to my birthday. Now both sit on my desk waiting to be mailed back unopened. On the day before my birthday my sister Bernie left a message on a friends voicemail … Continue reading
Trust
I think I have been told way too many times in the last year “You’ll never do that again”, “Lesson Learned”, “Don’t ever put yourself in that position again” “Why did you do this that or the other?” But all I … Continue reading
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