Tag Archives: Manic Depression

Seeing diagnosis in writing

Posted on June 21, 2016 by

I finally got the call to go pick up the shrinks sections of my disability forms. His wife/partner was quite proud of how detailed he was in filling out the forms ( THANK GAWD). Hopefully in addition to my novel … Continue reading →

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Buspirone Day 1

Posted on June 6, 2016 by

My anxiety the last 8+ mths has been the worst ever 😦 Shrink gave me Abilify to start way back in Fall because it has been beneficial to me in the past but the problem for me is that even … Continue reading →

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I hate winter :(

Posted on December 19, 2015 by

Far too much crap going on with me I don’t even know where to start.  I have been able to struggle through without meds even though we made a back-up plan for me to start Abilify again any time I … Continue reading →

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My melt down over seeing Ex ugh!

Posted on March 1, 2015 by

My Friday didn’t go that well aside from my canine buddy showing up in the evening. My ex from 5 years ago who caused the trauma ( 2 massive explosions) which triggered my mental illnesses was in the same store … Continue reading →

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I didn’t chicken out

Posted on January 29, 2015 by

I did start the 250mg of lamotrigine this morning 🙂 Yaaay me! The first words out of my mouth this morning at 5:45 am and after listening to crashing around for half hour before that were…..  “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING? … Continue reading →

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Should I Stay or Should I Go?

Posted on January 27, 2015 by

I have one more dose of Lamotrigine at 200mg tomorrow and then IF I feel like I have had improvement over the last 2 weeks I can stay at 200mg. If I feel I have not had improvement I can … Continue reading →

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A weekend full of squinting

Posted on January 26, 2015 by

This weekend has been one big fuck around for me.  A 4-night boarding gig was cancelled on Friday ( the DAY-OF arrival). I need to start making people pay WHEN they book with me not after the fact. Piss me … Continue reading →

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Jan 14/2015 Shrink Apt

Posted on January 15, 2015 by

As suspected he raised my Lamotrigine up to 200mg for 2 weeks. If I see improvement to any great extent I am to stay at that dose for now. If I do not see any significant improvement I am to … Continue reading →

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You, Me and my Shrink

Posted on January 6, 2015 by

Are the only people who know I have been diagnosed Bipolar II.   I don’t talk about it to my friends at all. I have only 1 friend that knows I even take meds but she does not know what … Continue reading →

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