Bemused By Beleaguering
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Adult onset rapid cycling Bipolar II, PTSD, Agoraphobic, Social anxiety disorder...triggered by a Trauma in 2010. I am also estranged from my immediate family. Complete Dog-Nerd.- Bemuse: To cause to be bewildered, preoccupied, confused. So lost in thought as to be unaware of one's surroundings.
- Beleaguer: To exhaust with attacks, to overburden with troubles, to mentally beset from all sides persistently
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Tag Archives: Dysfunctional
I hate Fathers Day
It’s still, even after 6 years, a hard one for me. When you have zero support or contact from your family pretty much all holidays sting. My grandfather and his siblings never spoke for most of their lives. My father … Continue reading
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Tagged Anxiety, Bullshit, Dysfunctional, Estrangement, Family, Life, Meddlers, Narcissist, Trust
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Fathers Day minus a Father
This is the 1st Fathers day in my life that I did not contact my Dad and send him a gift. I spent a great deal of time today reflecting on my past relationship with him. We generally got along … Continue reading
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Tagged Dysfunctional, Estrangement, Family, Mental Abuse, Trust
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Nars dog
During the day on May 19th I groomed Nars dog for her same as last year…just a basic shave down in advance of the warm weather. Took a couple of hours and she was a bit of a shit while I … Continue reading
Narcissist Drama
Here where I live the people have had a mentally challenged fellow in his late 20’s live with them for about 5 years. His room is right beside my tiny suite. He is always very polite and in the nearly … Continue reading
Ha…love this!
“Nobody can be kinder than the narcissist while you react to life in his own terms.” Elizabeth Bowen Now that is one of the best descriptions ever 🙂
Moving on
So it’s pretty apparent now that my current living situation is not working and not fixable. Reading about N’s I also realize it does not matter what I say or do it will be twisted into what the landlord-once friend … Continue reading
Repeat err
I so need out of my current situation…never realized it at the time but I have put myself in another position to be abused. Not a partner this time but a friend/landlord. When I moved here last summer it was … Continue reading
More unwanted contact
As suspected I got more mail from my Dad prior to my birthday. Now both sit on my desk waiting to be mailed back unopened. On the day before my birthday my sister Bernie left a message on a friends voicemail … Continue reading
Trust
I think I have been told way too many times in the last year “You’ll never do that again”, “Lesson Learned”, “Don’t ever put yourself in that position again” “Why did you do this that or the other?” But all I … Continue reading
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Coming New Year
I don’t really have any plans for New Years yet but I’ve never been into this holiday much. I’ve always prefered a quiet evening at home over crowds any day! I’m just glad to end this year as it has … Continue reading