Bemused By Beleaguering
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Adult onset rapid cycling Bipolar II, PTSD, Agoraphobic, Social anxiety disorder...triggered by a Trauma in 2010. I am also estranged from my immediate family. Complete Dog-Nerd.- Bemuse: To cause to be bewildered, preoccupied, confused. So lost in thought as to be unaware of one's surroundings.
- Beleaguer: To exhaust with attacks, to overburden with troubles, to mentally beset from all sides persistently
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Seeing diagnosis in writing
I finally got the call to go pick up the shrinks sections of my disability forms. His wife/partner was quite proud of how detailed he was in filling out the forms ( THANK GAWD). Hopefully in addition to my novel … Continue reading
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Tagged Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Bipolar, Bipolar II, Buspirone, Depression, Manic Depression, Mental Health, Psychiatrist, PTSD
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I hate Fathers Day
It’s still, even after 6 years, a hard one for me. When you have zero support or contact from your family pretty much all holidays sting. My grandfather and his siblings never spoke for most of their lives. My father … Continue reading
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Tagged Anxiety, Bullshit, Dysfunctional, Estrangement, Family, Life, Meddlers, Narcissist, Trust
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So far so good
I don’t seem to be having any totally annoying side effects to the Buspirone 🙂  Definitely not sedated or dizzy. However, I have spilled several things in last few days and fumbled or dropped items. Will see how things progress … Continue reading
Buspirone Day 1
My anxiety the last 8+ mths has been the worst ever 😦 Shrink gave me Abilify to start way back in Fall because it has been beneficial to me in the past but the problem for me is that even … Continue reading
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Tagged Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Bipolar II, Buspirone, Depression, Irritability, Manic Depression, Mental Health, PTSD
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Welcome Spring :)
Feeling a tad better than my last post couple mths back. I am currently working on my disability paperwork ( fuck this is a wad of info boooooo) and what you say can and will be held against you on … Continue reading
Doing a whole lot of nutin
First Update… my legal advocate was able to get my financial assistance denial reversed.  The whole ordeal pretty much paralyzed me for 2 & 1/2 mths though 😦 Sure, take someone with agoraphobia and say “Yup out you go on your … Continue reading
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Solo Holidays Suck
My boarding buddy! Loveliest oldie to keep me company over the holidays. Isn’t she gorgeous? It snowed here on the 22nd and has stayed which really is unheard of. White Christmas! On the 23rd I got a call back from … Continue reading
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I hate winter :(
Far too much crap going on with me I don’t even know where to start. Â I have been able to struggle through without meds even though we made a back-up plan for me to start Abilify again any time I … Continue reading
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Tagged Abilify, Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Bipolar II, Depression, Distressed, Manic Depression, Social anxiety disorder
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Heading into the darkness
Long time no blog! I have had a fairly busy couple mths with our local dog shows and boarding dogs while people have been away on vacations. Nice thing about dogs is that they do not care if you brush … Continue reading
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Meh. Happy Canada Day.
I got home earlier this week and was really glad to be back in my own space. Installed my a/c for the summer, got my deck/yard spruced up. British Columbia is nearly ready to burn up by spontaneous combustion. We … Continue reading
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