Bemused By Beleaguering
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Adult onset rapid cycling Bipolar II, PTSD, Agoraphobic, Social anxiety disorder...triggered by a Trauma in 2010. I am also estranged from my immediate family. Complete Dog-Nerd.- Bemuse: To cause to be bewildered, preoccupied, confused. So lost in thought as to be unaware of one's surroundings.
- Beleaguer: To exhaust with attacks, to overburden with troubles, to mentally beset from all sides persistently
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Tag Archives: Mental Health
Seeing diagnosis in writing
I finally got the call to go pick up the shrinks sections of my disability forms. His wife/partner was quite proud of how detailed he was in filling out the forms ( THANK GAWD). Hopefully in addition to my novel … Continue reading
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Tagged Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Bipolar, Bipolar II, Buspirone, Depression, Manic Depression, Mental Health, Psychiatrist, PTSD
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Buspirone Day 1
My anxiety the last 8+ mths has been the worst ever 😦 Shrink gave me Abilify to start way back in Fall because it has been beneficial to me in the past but the problem for me is that even … Continue reading
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Tagged Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Bipolar II, Buspirone, Depression, Irritability, Manic Depression, Mental Health, PTSD
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SIRENS, SIRENS AND MORE SIRENS :(
I was still in bed when the sirens started this morning. They are one of the main triggers for my PTSD freaking out symptoms. Just now was the 5th round of sirens and it is only 4pm. It is rare … Continue reading
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Tagged Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Bipolar II, Dogs, Mental Health, PTSD, Triggers
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Stupid people
Had kind of a shitty couple weeks. My main source of stress was that one of my dog boarding clients was pressuring me to commit to boarding her dog 24-7 for 2 weeks on 1 week off. I like her … Continue reading
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Tagged Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Bipolar II, Irritability, Mental Health
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My Jan and part of Feb Charts
Jan 29th is when I went from 200mg Lamotriging to 250mg. Aside from a slight improvement in my sleep quality I’m not seeing a whole lot of difference. I am however now not having such vivid dreams but waking each hour … Continue reading
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Tagged Anxiety, Bipolar, Bipolar II, Depression, Lamotrigine, Mental Health
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Should I Stay or Should I Go?
I have one more dose of Lamotrigine at 200mg tomorrow and then IF I feel like I have had improvement over the last 2 weeks I can stay at 200mg. If I feel I have not had improvement I can … Continue reading
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Tagged Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Bipolar II, Depression, Exercise, Insomnia, Lamotrigine, Manic Depression, Mental Health
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Forced out of the house by Meds
I have not been out since my last shrink appt / med pick up. That was the 14th so 10 days. The max amount my medical plan will provide meds for at one time is 30 days. The last time … Continue reading
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Tagged Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Bipolar II, Irritability, Lamotrigine, Mental Health, Misophonia, Panic Attacks, Social anxiety disorder
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Giddy UP !
I picked this bad boy up today (Craigs list find). It’s kind of a monstrosity in my dog room but at least it folds up somewhat. I’ve not been going swimming like I planned to do. The friend I would … Continue reading
Optimisim Online Discoveries
I discovered this morning that this new “issue” charting system I have been using is totally customizable! You can enter your stay well strategies, triggers and symptoms. Before appts you can save as a pdf & print off whatever period in … Continue reading
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Tagged Anxiety, Bipolar II, Depression, Mental Health, Mood Disorder
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Article: 11 Habits of People With Concealed Depression
11 Habits of People With Concealed Depression Lexi Herrick Posted: 01/08/2015 11:32 am EST There will be two main types of people reading this blog: those finding themselves better equipped to understand some of the people they love and those who … Continue reading