Tag Archives: Depression

Seeing diagnosis in writing

I finally got the call to go pick up the shrinks sections of my disability forms. His wife/partner was quite proud of how detailed he was in filling out the forms ( THANK GAWD). Hopefully in addition to my novel … Continue reading

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Buspirone Day 1

My anxiety the last 8+ mths has been the worst ever ūüė¶ Shrink gave me Abilify to start way back in Fall because it has been beneficial to me in the past but the problem for me is that even … Continue reading

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I hate winter :(

Far too much crap going on with me I don’t even know where to start. ¬†I have been able to struggle through without meds even though we made a back-up plan for me to start Abilify again any time I … Continue reading

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Physically in a good space. Mentally not so much.

I’m pet sitting 4¬†of my fav dogs ( ok they do bark excessively and I HATE that part of them! lol) Anxiety wise the bark thing is not great for me but it is lovely here at their place. 5 … Continue reading

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My Jan and part of Feb Charts

Jan 29th is when I went from 200mg Lamotriging to 250mg. Aside from a¬†slight improvement in my sleep quality I’m not seeing a whole lot of difference. I am however now not having such vivid dreams but waking each hour … Continue reading

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My family suicide history

1972- Maternal Grandfather @ age 54 y/o Drug overdose 1975- Aunt by marriage ( nobody would talk about it I was only 5 y/o at the time) 2005- Her adult son ( my cousin ) Hanging 2011- His teen son,¬†Hanging … Continue reading

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Should I Stay or Should I Go?

I have one more dose of Lamotrigine at 200mg tomorrow and then IF I feel like I have had improvement over the last 2 weeks I can stay at 200mg. If I feel I have not had improvement I can … Continue reading

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Optimisim Online Discoveries

I discovered this morning that this new “issue” charting¬†system I have been using is totally customizable! You can enter your stay well strategies, triggers and symptoms. ¬†Before appts you can save as a pdf & print off whatever period in … Continue reading

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Article: 11 Habits of People With Concealed Depression

11 Habits of People With Concealed Depression Lexi Herrick¬†Posted: 01/08/2015 11:32 am EST There will be two main types of people reading this blog: those finding themselves better equipped to understand some of the people they love and those who … Continue reading

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Jan 14/2015 Shrink Apt

As suspected he raised my Lamotrigine up to 200mg for 2 weeks. If I see improvement to any great extent I am to stay at that dose for now. If I do not see any significant improvement I am to … Continue reading

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